The other night, D and I were making dinner and generally chatting about life when D mentioned that he sometimes wonders whether he should have chosen a different career path. I said a pouty little "but then we probably never would have met," in response to which D wrapped his arms around my waist and said "yes, we would." I said "no, we wouldn't" and he said "yes, we would" with a ridiculous assurance that made me ask "why?" And he kissed me on the forehead and said "because we were meant to be together" (aw!).
Now, I pretty much hold the view that most things happen for a reason - decisions, mistakes, whatever - and that they all combine to land you precisely where you need to be. Looking back, I can see how every single step, even as far back as choosing what to study at university and where to work following graduation, was leading me to D (albeit slooowly). I hate to think that, had I changed one single thing in that chain of events, my life could have veered off in an entirely different direction that didn't include crossing paths with the beautiful man I am now lucky enough to call my husband. It may have been a great life, but it also may not have involved D, and I can't imagine life without him. But D's statement made me ponder whether really, we are all heading towards our own particular destinies and will get there in the end irrespective of the paths we wind up taking. Meant-to-be versus happens for a reason. Are they, in essence, the same? I just wonder, would I have still taken up photography? Gone on that particular trip? Posted the photos of Italy that prompted him to email me? If he had chosen a different path, would he have taken up photography? Met someone else? So many questions, and it kind of does my head in. Reminds me of the movie Sliding Doors, except I hope that I don't meet my untimely end in this timeline (sorry for the potential spoiler, but the movie is around fourteen years old (which in turn makes me feel kind of old), so I'm hoping it's alright!).
And that's kind of all I have to say about that (well, there is more, but I can't express it with any form of acceptable clarity, so it will remain a mess in my head).